i just close my eyes as i get stuck within my head

this part is a place for me to rant about things. i don't think i'll keep it updated i have like 18 of these across various websites but maybe it's a better look into the mentality of someone like me.

15/03/25: hey look guys i made a website about divorced yuri lol! i made this because i've been thinking about the past alot lately. about people that have left for better or for worse, i'm sure alot of people feel the same way. i can't act like nobody will see this, but i also can't act like anybody will. it's a weird middle ground. i remember when i was with alot of those people, i wasn't happy. i was always discontent or angry or uncomfortable. i'd like to say i am now. i love my friends more than anything, and my life is improving, surely but slowly, but i still can't help think of those people, and wonder if they miss me too.

18/03/25: i was thinking of you again. i don't like to admit how often i think about you, what you would say to me if you could see me now. how would you react? would you even care what i've accomplished- you always complained about how i never did anything. how i was too stuck in the past, how i was so smart yet i never did anything with it. i'm doing something now, but that wouldn't change how you see me. i'm always going to be inferior compared to you, even though you'd never openly admit it. i know how you think when you looked at me. maybe you still think the same.